I'm having another Lionel Richie day. My relationship kept chucking stuff up from the past, but my ex-girlfriend (still one of my best friends, I hope) and I have re-evaluated what we want from each other and so today we levelled- I told her I still care massively, she told me she didn't. But that's ok. In my opinion, a relationship doesn't mean anything unless it's real. If she wouldn't have been happy it wouldn't have felt right. Other things were said but, really, that's the crux of the matter.
I present to you the relationship/life graph. The x-axis represents the progression of the relationship, whilst the y-axis is how the relationship feels. Some people are content on the red line- they don't suffer the pain of the extreme lows, but never really experience the ecstasy of the highs. They may not even realise they're on the red line.I was on the red line for a lot of my life. Then I met her. I didn't know it, but at some stage I switched onto the blue. Our relationship, for me, went as follows- start was a little shaky, but then it peaked. It tailed off at the end. I knew she was pulling away but I didn't want to lose her so I said nothing, delaying it. Then she broke up with me. I troughed. Then we went on a date, trying again, and I went back up a bit. It didn't work out. I have been getting a bit better, but stuff got dug up and now, I'm troughing again. I'm pleased she was honest though. I think we can be really really good friends.
All in all, the pain sucks. I'm glad I'm not on the red line anymore though. I hope I get over her soon because it hurts.